I have been struggling with this decision for a while. I have decided to archive this blog, at least for now. I think I have accomplished as much as I can using this forum. I have been working on two other projects, one of which was completed over the weekend. The second will take a lot more time and most of my energy when I am not dealing with other important aspects of my life.
There have been a great many changes in my life since I came out publicly about what happened to me all those years ago. The discoveries made along the way were, at the same time, shocking, disappointing and liberating. I have spoken with other survivors, some whom I knew as a child, and shared a similar experience. For many of us, the stories are frighteningly similar, the aftermath intensely personal and for some the damage is just much more than can be expressed in words.
I am still frustrated by the lack of a coherent, organized voice to unite the survivors and advocate for a meaningful change in our laws and the way society looks at the problem of pedophiles targeting children. It is so much bigger than the Catholic Church, Penn State, the Boy Scouts of America or any other institutions that based their handling of the sexual abuse of children or vulnerable adults on a risk calculus more suited to protect their financial status and reputation.
Perhaps there will actually be a viable network of survivors at some point. There are groups who are making a difference in their own back yards. I wish them luck and I will lend a hand when I am able to do so.
It is just time to do something else. I will keep the blog on-line because people are still coming to it. I really don’t understand the numbers that still come everyday. But, for now, I do not think I will be posting unless something significant occurs. I will keep the email account open as well. I will delete the vitriol from the apologists who regularly spew their venom and ignore the trolls, I will monitor the rest.
I wish you all well.